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I’m a goddamned diamond

I have been blogging and talking online more lately about some hard parts of my childhood, particularly my violated boundaries and my difficult relationship with my mother. I’ve also thought about something my therapist said after I’d been seeing him for a while. It was something like, “I just imagine how successful and strong you would have been without the mother and… Read more →

You little shitass

Okay, here’s an utterly GROSS bit of childhood trivia. I had trouble pooping when I was a kid, and I would hide the fact from my mother as long as I could because I’d rather hurt than endure the solution. Eventually, though, Mama always noticed. She was a nurse, unafraid of bodily functions, so she would solve my problem with an… Read more →

So safe I was trapped

I knew my childhood was lonely and there were some bad experiences, bad practices, and a few bad people. It wasn’t until I got into counseling and watched my therapists gape that I began to realize just how unhealthy and abnormal some parts of it were. All these years, I have carried forth the belief that I am a bad… Read more →

Our hide-and-go-seek sex life

I wonder how many people feel as conflicted as I do about having sex with a spouse who has been unfaithful. My husband’s multi-year emotional affair ended in mid-2012. Our sex life has been erratic since then. He has always struggled with erectile dysfunction, but it was much, much worse in the years just before his affair. It got to… Read more →